The above signature picture shows my name and who am i
*- Give me the strength to walk away...
*- Give me the hope to mend this heart...
*- Give me the chance to see love smile again...
Tuesday, July 8, 2008,7/08/2008 12:36:00 PM
If U Can't Handle Me at My Worst , Den U Don't Deserve Me at My BEST
So hari nie blog aku mcm rojak coz aku campur aduk english ngan malay language okae?
I slept for 2 hours only...bangun kul 8...but bile aku dah bangun , aku tiba2 termenung , air mata mengalir ke pipiku.Haiz...i haf no words to explain rite now....mak aku masuk bilik n ketawa tgk aku...~duh..."boy ngigau eh"?...ish takder la...sajer tiba tiba cuma sedih ajer...entah mengapa..
Korang nak ckp aku kedi ckp la!!!!!!!...wakakakkaka...pegi mampus!!!!
Okae for the 1st time mak aku duduk sebelah aku dia lecture aku sambil tu dia comfort aku
"Kau balik dah mabuk2 , mulut bau arak....dah kenaper nie zul?"
"Wat happen my son?"...
And i told her everthing and guess wat she said...?
"Kau ngan ayah kau samer jugak , hati terlalu lembut kat pompan.."
Serious meh?hmmmm
"Buat aper nak risau sgt pasal dia nie?dia adek kau?dia isteri kau?dia tunang kau?
"Tak kan?den dah kenaper ngan kau ?
"Sedangkan mak bapak , adek-bradek dia takder risau kat dia , kau plak nak risau2?
"Let her be wat she gonna be , susah senang dan menyesal dia yg rasa..bukan kau zul"
"pasal nie benda kau tak pegi kerja , kau tak makan , isap rokok jer lebih...isap la sampai mati"
Eh-eh ni org tua..melalut la plak sei...hur hur...
"skrg la masanyer utk kau bekerja keras , kumpul duit , carik perempuan yg sesuai den kahwin"
"Faham??....
"ibu tanak tgk anak ibu merana seperti kisah yang lalu"
"banyak lagi bunga bunga yang indah dan harum kat luar tu , cuma nak kene pandai pilih"
"buang yg keroh , ambil yang jernih , bina hidup dan azam baru"
Well aku tak sangka mak aku ckp tu mcm kat aku....dia bukak minda aku on tat time jgk
Benar kata-kata dia tu.....she is the only person who can understand me well
Even though kita 1 family jarang bobal , but i know , she WILL alwaes there for me
Thanks my dear mother...
Syurga dia bawak tapak kaki ibu tau..ingat!!..hehehe
3 months countdown
Next month on the 1st week gonna be my birthday , cepat la sei
Next 2 month puasa...cepat la sei nak puasa
Next 3 month tiba la Hari Raya...yey~yeh!!
Tis few weeks or days i juz feel myself so miserable
Mcm hopeless gitu uh..tiada maknanya uh...
I juz need somebody to be wif me
I juz need somebody to entertain me , asik aku jer entertain org..maner fair..ahahaha
I juz need somebody to cherish me wif love...
I missed being pampered...haiz
Is anyone out there?
Wanita manakah yang sanggup berkongsi kasih dengan aku?
Im juz stupid i guess...i think it is juz a waste of time
Im juz pissed off wif somebody i guess , juz tat i dun want to show it to them
You can see me smile alwaes but not inside aite....
To ica: y must i confess?as i knoe she only treat me as a fren , not more den tat
No use for me i guess...as if things can change like dat huh?
Aku nie hanya tempat bersinggahan sahaja kepada dia
I haf no words to say n describe anymore futher...
Its my fault i guess to get things over emotional i guess...
Hatiku terpaut melihat senyumanmu
Aku berharap engkau menerima ku
Kerna aku bersedia menyintaimu...
Im not moody today , juz tat my mood is so down...down rabak nyer
If someone can make me smile or happy , den i guess its better....
Rupa takder tak mengapa , Yang penting hati mau sachok...
So hari nie blog aku mcm rojak coz aku campur aduk english ngan malay language okae?
I slept for 2 hours only...bangun kul 8...but bile aku dah bangun , aku tiba2 termenung , air mata mengalir ke pipiku.Haiz...i haf no words to explain rite now....mak aku masuk bilik n ketawa tgk aku...~duh..."boy ngigau eh"?...ish takder la...sajer tiba tiba cuma sedih ajer...entah mengapa..
Korang nak ckp aku kedi ckp la!!!!!!!...wakakakkaka...pegi mampus!!!!
Okae for the 1st time mak aku duduk sebelah aku dia lecture aku sambil tu dia comfort aku
"Kau balik dah mabuk2 , mulut bau arak....dah kenaper nie zul?"
"Wat happen my son?"...
And i told her everthing and guess wat she said...?
"Kau ngan ayah kau samer jugak , hati terlalu lembut kat pompan.."
Serious meh?hmmmm
"Buat aper nak risau sgt pasal dia nie?dia adek kau?dia isteri kau?dia tunang kau?
"Tak kan?den dah kenaper ngan kau ?
"Sedangkan mak bapak , adek-bradek dia takder risau kat dia , kau plak nak risau2?
"Let her be wat she gonna be , susah senang dan menyesal dia yg rasa..bukan kau zul"
"pasal nie benda kau tak pegi kerja , kau tak makan , isap rokok jer lebih...isap la sampai mati"
Eh-eh ni org tua..melalut la plak sei...hur hur...
"skrg la masanyer utk kau bekerja keras , kumpul duit , carik perempuan yg sesuai den kahwin"
"Faham??....
"ibu tanak tgk anak ibu merana seperti kisah yang lalu"
"banyak lagi bunga bunga yang indah dan harum kat luar tu , cuma nak kene pandai pilih"
"buang yg keroh , ambil yang jernih , bina hidup dan azam baru"
Well aku tak sangka mak aku ckp tu mcm kat aku....dia bukak minda aku on tat time jgk
Benar kata-kata dia tu.....she is the only person who can understand me well
Even though kita 1 family jarang bobal , but i know , she WILL alwaes there for me
Thanks my dear mother...
Syurga dia bawak tapak kaki ibu tau..ingat!!..hehehe
3 months countdown
Next month on the 1st week gonna be my birthday , cepat la sei
Next 2 month puasa...cepat la sei nak puasa
Next 3 month tiba la Hari Raya...yey~yeh!!
Tis few weeks or days i juz feel myself so miserable
Mcm hopeless gitu uh..tiada maknanya uh...
I juz need somebody to be wif me
I juz need somebody to entertain me , asik aku jer entertain org..maner fair..ahahaha
I juz need somebody to cherish me wif love...
I missed being pampered...haiz
Is anyone out there?
Wanita manakah yang sanggup berkongsi kasih dengan aku?
Im juz stupid i guess...i think it is juz a waste of time
Im juz pissed off wif somebody i guess , juz tat i dun want to show it to them
You can see me smile alwaes but not inside aite....
To ica: y must i confess?as i knoe she only treat me as a fren , not more den tat
No use for me i guess...as if things can change like dat huh?
Aku nie hanya tempat bersinggahan sahaja kepada dia
I haf no words to say n describe anymore futher...
Its my fault i guess to get things over emotional i guess...
Hatiku terpaut melihat senyumanmu
Aku berharap engkau menerima ku
Kerna aku bersedia menyintaimu...
Im not moody today , juz tat my mood is so down...down rabak nyer
If someone can make me smile or happy , den i guess its better....
Rupa takder tak mengapa , Yang penting hati mau sachok...