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*- Give me the strength to walk away...
*- Give me the hope to mend this heart...
*- Give me the chance to see love smile again...
Dugaan dan Cubaan hidup aku...
Monday, November 17, 2008,11/17/2008 01:21:00 PM
The Family
My mum juz finished her operation 4 days ago...
Blood cloth ard her chest near her breast...
Oh well , my parents told me it is juz a normal check up
But in the end when they reached home my dad do told me she had an operation
Juz a 1 day surgery actually
Hell yeah...y must lie to me...argh...
And then yesterday my dad went to check up his eyes...
Maybe going for an operation...but now he is lying on his bed coz he was so sick
I juz hope and wish they are in good health
I juz pray hard to Allah my very best
I still need them..i dun wan to lose them....
The Self Problem
Still havent found a job for myself , it's going to be a month im not working
I tried my very best everyday calling n sending my Resume
But no response from each of the company...haiz
All daily n monthly expenses is stress up n jumble up
I need to pay my hp bills
I need to pay my Internet bills
I need to pay my Bike installment bills
My bike brokedown and i need to repair it...
I need to change my bike tyre coz it worn off
I cant be asking my parents for money to pay all those..
It juz too expensive for them to support me...
How i wish i can settle all those within this month..but it CAN'T
About HER
You know tat i love u so much...
You do love me so much too...
As days goes by..im becoming to love u more
Im juz deeply in love with you....
But i juz dunno when...
When is the time for u to brave up urself...
I juz dun want to lose u again tis time...lose u once is a burden to me
Yet i noe i been repeating the same old sentence and quote...
But tat do tells all the meanings...
Hope u try ur very best to brave up urself...im not forcing u either...i juz wish n pray for u
Because i love and care about u...
I love you...
The Conclusion
I juz dunno why all this must be happening to me , my family and my life
Is this a life threatening or wat?
Testing how far my patience is?
How far i can stand?
When can it Last?
How long more?
So many questions playing in my mind...
" Ya Allah ya tuhan ku , tunjuk dan bukak la pintu hati aku ke jalan yang benar"
" Lindungi la keluarga ku dari segala balak dan seksaan"
"Jauhi la aku dan keluarga ku dari usikan syaitan "
"Ampun kan la segala dosa kedua ibu bapa ku dan diri aku "
"Amin"
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My mum juz finished her operation 4 days ago...
Blood cloth ard her chest near her breast...
Oh well , my parents told me it is juz a normal check up
But in the end when they reached home my dad do told me she had an operation
Juz a 1 day surgery actually
Hell yeah...y must lie to me...argh...
And then yesterday my dad went to check up his eyes...
Maybe going for an operation...but now he is lying on his bed coz he was so sick
I juz hope and wish they are in good health
I juz pray hard to Allah my very best
I still need them..i dun wan to lose them....
The Self Problem
Still havent found a job for myself , it's going to be a month im not working
I tried my very best everyday calling n sending my Resume
But no response from each of the company...haiz
All daily n monthly expenses is stress up n jumble up
I need to pay my hp bills
I need to pay my Internet bills
I need to pay my Bike installment bills
My bike brokedown and i need to repair it...
I need to change my bike tyre coz it worn off
I cant be asking my parents for money to pay all those..
It juz too expensive for them to support me...
How i wish i can settle all those within this month..but it CAN'T
About HER
You know tat i love u so much...
You do love me so much too...
As days goes by..im becoming to love u more
Im juz deeply in love with you....
But i juz dunno when...
When is the time for u to brave up urself...
I juz dun want to lose u again tis time...lose u once is a burden to me
Yet i noe i been repeating the same old sentence and quote...
But tat do tells all the meanings...
Hope u try ur very best to brave up urself...im not forcing u either...i juz wish n pray for u
Because i love and care about u...
I love you...
The Conclusion
I juz dunno why all this must be happening to me , my family and my life
Is this a life threatening or wat?
Testing how far my patience is?
How far i can stand?
When can it Last?
How long more?
So many questions playing in my mind...
" Ya Allah ya tuhan ku , tunjuk dan bukak la pintu hati aku ke jalan yang benar"
" Lindungi la keluarga ku dari segala balak dan seksaan"
"Jauhi la aku dan keluarga ku dari usikan syaitan "
"Ampun kan la segala dosa kedua ibu bapa ku dan diri aku "
"Amin"
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