Alba. Anne. Cat. Eza. Faizura. Fida. Juliana. KiN. Liz. Yunira. Nano.

Don't be friend's wif me
If u wanna take advantage of my kindness

TAK FAHAM ??

Read the above sentence and understand it...

Oh well..i've been dating wif this particular gal..
For about 1 year plus ?
Since she haf a bf..until she broke up
And she matair wif other guy..
i dunno how many guys she matair
Ever since i noe her...
Coz i didn't bother to count or consent either...

But day after day..tis strange n funny feelings came...
I started to LIKE her...
Bukan love eh...but is LIKE
Till now , she is currently single..
Should i grap the chance to confess to her?
But my heart says NO.
WHY?
1st she had alot of guy friends...so i guess i will feel uneasy
And i will get jealous...even though if she were to say..
They are juz friends..not more den that..
But behind me..?who noes rite...?
If i were to say , i haf alot of galfrenz...wat will she be thinking too rite?
Come back to the same...
Wat goes around , comes around

2nd . Yes , she do club..and she is a heavy clubber ...
Every time she club , she alwaes get to kenal-kenal wif guyz
And she will tell me tat she kenal kenal wif this guy la...tat guy laa..
~duh...Dgr pun mcm bingit la jugak kan...tapi saper la kita nie kan...
So aku cuma layankan ajer laa...

3rd. I dun mind about money...i got money , for sure i treat..
If no money...duduk diam diam sudah la...betol ?
I dun mind about bike petrol , got petrol i will travel to east side n mit her
No petrol , duduk rumah diam diam sudah la...betol ?
Yes she stay at the east side..and tat is far from Choa Chu Kang
Which is my hometown oke...
But days after days..
Weeks after weeks..
Months after months...
Send her back from when she got no train n bus left..
Her frens left her when they got other things to do..
Mit her when she bored..
Send her to this place n that when she need to go..
I dun mind...
But juz now...i juz did it again....From Cck to East side den to Toa Payoh..
Drop her there , and she left me....
She says she wanna buy bread n draw money from ATM
And the place was not far from her so called "NENEK HOUSE"
So she left , and after about 10 mins , i move off from the Estate
Wanted to look for her at the Atm , but she is no where...
Saw a Cab move off...Izzit her or no?
I dunno...wonder where she go after withdraw money...?
Hmmmm

To think back , why cant she ask me to drop by 1st buy
Some bread n draw money before going to her so called "NENEK HOUSE"
Asal tak eh?
Takper , mungkin aku silap kali ini
Mungkin aku tak nampak
Tapi yang di Atas tu nampak segalanye
Dia tahu segalanye
Allah maha kuasa , Allah maha Adil
Allah akan menunjuk Kebesaran dia kepada kau
Satu hari Kelak...
Amin

Reason to Toa Payoh: Nenek Sakit , takder org jaga...

Kalau kau betul n jujur , bagus la..
Kalau kau tipu , pandai-pandai la eh...

Not once but many times wif other few reasons...

So on the way back home , this mind of mine
Suddenly open up wide n think carefully..
She juz taking my advantage of my kindness izzit?
Well , if it YES , please dun be friends wif me..
I want a sincere friend
and
i want a sincere relationship

i dun like people when bored or need help den come look for me
After tat , u dissappear...
I hate those type of character...

I am not ur Despatch Rider , I am not ur Transporter
I am not ur Banker
And Im not ur Entertainer...

Please bare tat in mind...

I can type or blog watever i like , coz tis blog of mine is PRIVATE..
Like Hello..atlast i haf this Privacy of mine k...

So i guess , i no need to confess to her...
For my own sake of life , i juz scared
So i need to move on..from NOW ON...

I hate liars..even though u lied becoz of small mater
I hate u..and its hard for me to trust u again..
Why cant u juz say the truth ?
Tak bawak Mati kan ?
Tak faham aku ngan pompan pompan nie...
Bukan dia sorang , ader banyak lagi...

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Don't Be Friends With Me
If You Wanna Take Advantage Of Me

Thanks...

Zul Air Mata